Sessions with Donna #18

I went into this session asking what I needed to do to mitigate any residual negative issues left over from the multitudes of temporal changed I have recently experienced in My life. The subject matter was particularly centered on the end of a 7 1/2 year relationship with a guy. The question involved healing the heart sick with FAITH, which seemed to be a theme from a recent group session as well.  

Before moving on, some notes on relationships. I've had four long term relationships in My 45 trips around the Sun. In all of them, I gave up pieces of Myself to co-exist in toxic relationships. I justified useless acts, negative thought patterns, disconnection on source and center, denying My Celestial Parents depth of relationship and lying to myself with shallow unsubstantiated reasoning. The sake of the idea of the relationship I wanted, but would never really achieve. I've been single for a year and a half now. I moved across the country to get out of the relationship. 

The session began with Me sitting in a dark space with crossed legs with My Heart Light Orb and Outer Light Body fully lit. I was facing the word FAITH and STEPHANIE appeared above My head. I held this space watching the energy in the letters integrate into My Heart Light and Outer Light Tubes. I feel it is important to note, this was a circulatory process - as light comes into My Being it interacts with the Light Energies from the letters in the words. It didn't feel as though I was just receiving energy, but intermingling with other energy. After a bit, I found Myself standing facing My Inner Child. I am My adolescent self. I realized She is the one I have let down. Faith is inverse and multi-dimensional. Smiling up at Me I could feel Her Faith in Me, just as I am exploring different aspects of Faith, Faith in Myself, Faith everything is going to be all right eventually, etc. I asked Her to forgive Me for getting it wrong all of these years by not being loyal to Her first. 

We were immediately standing in the field still facing each other. Her smile radiated up at Me as she extended a flower out to Me. We spun around together laughing and hugging for a bit before We were back in the dark space again. She was to My right. We were both facing a mirror. After a moment, She leaves My side and I see Her as My reflection in the mirror, though I am still My adolescent self. Instantly, We switch spaces. I am the face My Inner Child sees reflecting back at her and then back again. I am looking at My reflection which appears as My Inner Child, except this time there is no dark space reflecting as the background. My inner Child appears standing in the field waving at Me. I look around Me, and note I am still standing in the dark space. 

The mirror is gone. In front of Me instead appears a shadow body that looks like a paper doll cut out of black card board paper facing a light orb. A tube of light extends out from the Light Orb and connects to the Heart area of My Shadow Body. A stream of light flows into the shadow body extending out in all directions on the surface. I went over to look closely at the surface of the shadow person cut out of myself. 

Standing back looking at the front of the cut out I could see the surface as a mosaic of all of the photographs and valuable memories I've taken or had in My life. The pictures made up a portrait of My Inner Child. As I stared at the pictures before Me, the mosaic shifted the pictures around until I was looking at a portrait of Me as My adolescent self. It was as if I were staring a painting in an art museum. I felt so loved and happy at this moment seeing the fabric I have created throughout My life. I felt full indescribable appreciation from both Father and Mother. For a moment, I was back in the field as My adolescent self standing with My Inner Child, surrounded by Father's Robes. We both hugged the robes extending all possible Heart Light Love Energy out to Him.and enjoyed receiving His loving energy and Joy. 

I was back in the dark space sitting crossed legged with the words SOUL VALUE, FAITH and SOUL GROWTH counter clockwise around Me. I could feel tingling all over My Body. I could see the ends of all the nerves in My Body lit up, vibrating softly. STEPHANIE appeared above My body and moved down into My Outer Body Light Tubes entering from My Head and extending down. My Personality as the container carrying My Soul made more sense to Me. 

I can't stop thinking about infusing personality energy into the outer light tube walls. During the session, the word STEPHANIE infused into My outer light walls. I saw all of My nerve endings and I thought it was about physical pain. I think it's more about building out the tissue needed to truly house a growing soul. Using Personality... in My Mind right now it's using Personality energy or tissue, but I know it's way more than that.... to construct the outer light being is technically significant. 

Past notes: My first perception of the separation of Body/Mind/Soul was Humans are born with a Body, infused with a thought adjuster who appears as a little light in a human body form as a child. As the Human, going through life experiences, becomes more spiritual, the inner light grows to become larger than the human body form.  Other Human Beings see the spiritual side of that person over the physical form. I had been reading the UB for a couple of years by Myself at the time and was attending a study group in Seattle, WA. 

In Session 16, I ask Father to show Me interactions between people. I bring this up because if personality it infused with the outer wall and used to create divinely relevant experience which then becomes a thread of fabric in the supreme. How does this work for healing the outer physical form? I feel like this is the key to what You and Henry are currently learning. I don't understand it all, but certainly felt compelled to point it out.