I went into this session asking what I needed to do to
mitigate any residual negative issues left over from the multitudes of temporal
changed I have recently experienced in My life. The subject matter was
particularly centered on the end of a 7 1/2 year relationship with a guy. The
question involved healing the heart sick with FAITH, which seemed to be a theme
from a recent group session as well.
Before moving on, some notes on
relationships. I've had four long term relationships in My 45 trips around the
Sun. In all of them, I gave up pieces of Myself to co-exist in toxic
relationships. I justified useless acts, negative thought patterns,
disconnection on source and center, denying My Celestial Parents depth of
relationship and lying to myself with shallow unsubstantiated reasoning. The
sake of the idea of the relationship I wanted, but would never really achieve.
I've been single for a year and a half now. I moved across the country to get
out of the relationship.
The session began with Me sitting in a dark space with
crossed legs with My Heart Light Orb and Outer Light Body fully lit. I was
facing the word FAITH and STEPHANIE appeared above My head. I held this space
watching the energy in the letters integrate into My Heart Light and Outer
Light Tubes. I feel it is important to note, this was a circulatory process -
as light comes into My Being it interacts with the Light Energies from the
letters in the words. It didn't feel as though I was just receiving energy, but
intermingling with other energy. After a bit, I found Myself standing facing My
Inner Child. I am My adolescent self. I realized She is the one I have let
down. Faith is inverse and multi-dimensional. Smiling up at Me I could feel Her
Faith in Me, just as I am exploring different aspects of Faith, Faith in
Myself, Faith everything is going to be all right eventually, etc. I asked Her
to forgive Me for getting it wrong all of these years by not being loyal to Her
first.
We were immediately standing in the field still facing each
other. Her smile radiated up at Me as she extended a flower out to Me. We spun
around together laughing and hugging for a bit before We were back in the dark
space again. She was to My right. We were both facing a mirror. After a moment,
She leaves My side and I see Her as My reflection in the mirror, though I am
still My adolescent self. Instantly, We switch spaces. I am the face My
Inner Child sees reflecting back at her and then back again. I am looking at My
reflection which appears as My Inner Child, except this time there is no dark
space reflecting as the background. My inner Child appears standing in the
field waving at Me. I look around Me, and note I am still standing in the dark
space.
The mirror is gone. In front of Me instead appears a shadow
body that looks like a paper doll cut out of black card board paper facing a
light orb. A tube of light extends out from the Light Orb and connects to the
Heart area of My Shadow Body. A stream of light flows into the shadow body
extending out in all directions on the surface. I went over to look closely at
the surface of the shadow person cut out of myself.
Standing back looking at
the front of the cut out I could see the surface as a mosaic of all of the
photographs and valuable memories I've taken or had in My life. The pictures
made up a portrait of My Inner Child. As I stared at the pictures before Me,
the mosaic shifted the pictures around until I was looking at a portrait of Me as My adolescent self. It was as if I were staring a painting in an art museum. I felt
so loved and happy at this moment seeing the fabric I have created throughout
My life. I felt full indescribable appreciation from both Father and Mother.
For a moment, I was back in the field as My adolescent self standing with My
Inner Child, surrounded by Father's Robes. We both hugged the robes extending
all possible Heart Light Love Energy out to Him.and enjoyed receiving His
loving energy and Joy.
I was back in the dark space sitting crossed legged with the words SOUL VALUE, FAITH and SOUL GROWTH counter clockwise around Me. I could feel tingling all over
My Body. I could see the ends of all the nerves in My Body lit up, vibrating
softly. STEPHANIE appeared above My body and moved down into My Outer Body
Light Tubes entering from My Head and extending down. My Personality as the
container carrying My Soul made more sense to Me.
I can't stop thinking about infusing personality energy into
the outer light tube walls. During the session, the word STEPHANIE infused into
My outer light walls. I saw all of My nerve endings and I thought it was about
physical pain. I think it's more about building out the tissue needed to truly
house a growing soul. Using Personality... in My Mind right now it's using
Personality energy or tissue, but I know it's way more than that.... to
construct the outer light being is technically significant.
Past notes: My first perception of the separation of
Body/Mind/Soul was Humans are born with a Body, infused with a thought adjuster
who appears as a little light in a human body form as a child. As the Human,
going through life experiences, becomes more spiritual, the inner light grows to
become larger than the human body form. Other Human Beings see the
spiritual side of that person over the physical form. I had been reading the UB
for a couple of years by Myself at the time and was attending a study group in
Seattle, WA.
In Session 16, I ask Father to show Me interactions between
people. I bring this up because if personality it infused with the outer wall
and used to create divinely relevant experience which then becomes a thread of
fabric in the supreme. How does this work for healing the outer physical form?
I feel like this is the key to what You and Henry are currently learning. I
don't understand it all, but certainly felt compelled to point it out.
