I found myself, once
again, dealing with a sociopath. After dating one for 6 years and getting away,
it has become easier to recognize them. I can now spot them out of a crowd.
This is not to say I am judging their mental state, it just means I need to adjust
how I deal with them.
Sociopaths are wired
incorrectly in their frontal lobe. They are conditioned by environment, but
sociopath is also a hereditary condition. There is a spectrum ranging from
narcissist to psychopath. Sociopath is somewhere in the middle. Sociopaths can,
but do not always display violent tendencies, however, they are very
unpredictable when being exposed. A sociopath's biggest fear is being exposed
and anything can happen when the spotlight of truth shines on them. Research
shows 1 out of 25 people fall somewhere on the anti-social disorder spectrum,
which means normal people often have to deal with them, whether it be a family
member, co-worker or significant other.
The particular
sociopath in this situation was in a 10 year relationship with a new friend. I
was considering entering into a business partnership with both of them, but it
didn't take long to figure out My new friend was caught up in the sociopath's
web. In pointing out his sociopath tendencies to My friend, She realized it was
time to get out. The sociopath, of course, blamed Me for all of the problems in
their relationship and turned aggressive towards Me almost immediately.
I keep my head on
and remained unemotional in his presence. I made no response to his weird
comments and advances. I refused to be baited by his attacks. The situation
esculated quickly. He began throwing things and screaming. My friend and I
ended up locked in a spare bedroom all night. We left at dawn and positioned
ourselves in a public place, a small diner in the town center. Once We were
away from him, the PTSD kicked in on My third cup of coffee. I needed help
grounding myself and felt the need for protection.
I wanted to be
compassionate towards the sociopath. After all, it's a hereditary condition.
They can't help they were born wired incorrectly. Without specialized professional help
centered around teaching coping mechanisms, their reality is a sad state of
being. They think everyone is out to get them. Knowing something is wrong with
them without quite knowing exactly what's happening, their self esteem exists
at subterranean levels. I get it. I also understand regardless of the
situation, I need to protect Myself physically and emotionally.
I called Donna to
help. I knew I couldn't and shouldn't attempt to handle the situation alone. As
the session began, I remembered a previous session conducted way back when I
was leaving the relationship I was in with a sociopath. I absolutely loved the person
I was with, but knew something was wrong. I was angry, but still recognized the
sociopath as My Brother, a beloved Child of God. I asked Father to show Me what
was happening on a heart/mind/light body level. He showed Me a light body with
erratic patterns in the brain area and a need for the individual to think with
their heart brain rather than their minds. I went into the session asking how I
could help this individual see with his heart brain.
Mother and Father
knew I needed protection, so they put space between us; At least 2 football
fields of space respectively. I was standing in a field facing the sociopath
who was on the other side. There was a large circuit which appeared as a light
orb centered between us with the words HEART BRAIN gently pulsing blue light
above the orb. The word FORGIVENESS came down from the atmosphere above and
centered itself in the middle of the orb. I was watching the sociopath as
Mother and Father worked on him. I could see his roots extending below him
going very far into the ground. A white light appeared above his head and moved
through his light body intensifying as it went. Once it reached the ground
level, a blue light came from underneath illuminating the root system and
moving up through his light body. The word PEACE appeared in his Heart Light
Orb.
I knew this was
Father working with him and offered My Father Fragment to help. Permission was
granted and a light tube extended out from both of our Heart Light Orbs
connecting in the middle. I felt very safe in Mother. I knew what I was doing
was the correct thing to do. It was difficult to overcome My Human Perception
of the situation as I was comparing it to what happened to Me with the
sociopath I was dating. This whole session was about letting spirit work
through Me, not Me assuming the correct action and attempting to control
spirit.
This also revealed jealousy and
anger coming from the sociopath's emotional body. I was happy I had asked for
help. This could have been a dangerous situation had I attempted to handle it
alone.
My Friend appeared
next to Me. She was radiating a yellow light and smiling warmly. We shared a
warm embrace as I tried to convey in feeling how much I wanted the best for
Her. I wanted everything to be OK. The word CONFIDENCE came down from above and
centered in Her Heart Chakra. I wanted to give Her all of My Confidence. She
truly is more powerful as a healer than She realizes. I felt like a little kid
over excited about sharing her toys with another.
Since I moved to
Costa Rica, I have been disheartened by the culture of abuse here. The men in
Costa Rica expect the Women to accommodate their every need while they are
driven by sexual perversion. Many men cheat on their wives girlfriends
and lie about the details. The Women here are
expected to accept. I am not OK with any of this, but feel powerless to do
anything. I don't even know where to start. These are deep rooted problems and
then there is a language barrier. I seriously don't know how I can help. When I
saw Father working through the sociopath's roots from below to the Heart, at
least I knew My assessment of the situation was correct; Deep Rooted Problems.
At the end of the
session, the field disappeared and I found myself alone seated, legs crossed in
an empty space, the word STEPHANIE pulsing above Me. I felt more confident
Myself reassured by Mother and Father. I've got this. As I navigate situations
in Costa Rica, I feel confident in My capabilities. I can do this. I'm still
not sure of My purpose here, but I am happy to have the opportunity to learn
and be of service.
